Getting Back in the Swing of Things

     "Hello World" That's right, I'm back. I hope it's going to be an ongoing thing. I've had some rough times on and off since I last posted.Yes I know I haven't posted on here since 2010, and for that I am sorry. I have over the last year or so been a bit more active on social media sites like Facebook and Twitter, and I'll post links to those later on.
      I lost my best friend to suicide. That was pretty hard on me, I took an overdose of sleeping pills and wound up in the Behavioral Health facility, about a week or so before Christmas 2011. I don't know if I was trying to kill myself or just looking for an excuse to get help.  I did manage to get home before Christmas.  Along with getting the help I needed at the moment, I left with a more solid diagnosis.  Bipolar with Psychosis, and PTSD.
     This led to new medicines, one set of which I did not react well to.  They quickly switched me to some older meds, and I had an almost immediate improvement in my overall state of mind.  I've been on this new medication for several months  now, and until recently, I've been doing a lot better.
    That is, up till a few weeks ago.  I once again began to see things and hear voices.  The combination of just dealing with the sheer state of it, along with what the voices are telling me has put me in a pretty depressed state.  I was doing so much better I agreed to help out a friend of mine with some computer work.  I'm still committed to helping, this coming Friday.  But I go Tuesday of next week to see my Dr.  I'm afraid they will want to send me to the hospital again, and I really don't want to go down that road.
     Speaking of which, I had a major case of depression going on today, while the wife and kids where out.  I tried to fend it off alone but to no avail.   I wound up instant messaging a friend online who walked me though some things to do to help with this.  You know who you are and that I love you and thank you for being there for me, even though you have a busy life.
     That's all I have to say about today.   I can't promise tomorrow but I will try my best, upon the advice of friends, I shall attempt once again to journal my life here, and hope for a better tomorrow for me.