Another day goes by

So today has been not very eventful. I've had some shakey spells, some hip pain to boot so not been the best of days. I'm making it through though and that is all one can expect out of things. I need to find something to fill my days, a hobby or project or something to take up some of my time. I'm open to suggestion so somebody tell me a good idea, Please.

Not much to say

I don't have a bunch to say. I've been fighting some hip pain for a while now and I've been to the doctor. They saw nothing big on x-ray so they are treating it like a muscle problem, giving me anti-inflammatory meds and something for pain. I'm not a happy camper about this but I do what I have to.

I've not blogged since Sunday and that is not a good thing, I need to buckle down and blog more regularly. This is part of my treatment, journaling my days. So here is one down, and I'll try to do better over the coming days.

TTFN Tata for now.(to quote T-i Double Ga Er)

The Remains of the day, and such

I know i've used that title before but it seems fitting. I slept in and then slept a lot of my day away. I was running a pretty good fever for the first half of the day. I'm feeling better now, and staying up late to make up for the long sleep. My throat is sore, and i'm getting pretty tired.
I go to the Dr. tomorrow about my hip and I'll have them look at my throat.

Good night world, I hope tomorrow finds everyone in a better place.

Looking Brighter

the days are starting to look less bleak for me. I'm Struggling to make every day be better. I still have a lot of trouble getting going in the mornings. I try to sleep at night but I don't feel rested in the mornings.

I don't feel as bleak as I did. Maybe there is a path out of the darkness. maybe I can find it and work my way along it. I just don't know how long it will take.

Howdy Everyone

Its been a pretty good day, and I talked to my doctor and got some minor changes to my meds which will I think help with the anxiety.

So I'm thinking, what next?

I'm Reading Tao of Pooh and looking at a video of T'ai Chi so maybe that is the path to getting better, a bit of Taoism. We shall see what comes of it.

A day again

Another day goes by, and today has been pretty good.

I have struggled with anxiety and nerves but its still has been a good day. The kids are at my Mom's house and me and the Mrs have watched a couple of movies, overall a good day.

I'm Sick

Pitty me world for i have the crud. I sniffle and cough

Its not been the best of days

Nor, I should add has it been the worst either. Its just been a day, and I have to learn to deal with each day as it comes, in its own manner.
I've been a bit down today, and fighting this cough/cold bug thingy too so that's never fun.

The Hospital

I spent from Monday till Saturday in the Behavioral Health Center. It wasn't fun but I think I got some good advice and the help I needed to get started down a healthier path. I had some adjustments and outright changes made to my medications.

Currently My diagnosis is Major Depressive with Psychosis. I'm going to study and learn up on this diagnosis and make a booklet/binder with my med charts, what is wrong with me, what my symptoms are and information about how and where to get help.

Sunday and Consequences

Sunday i had a bad day I took a bunch of pills to go to sleep without concern for how my family would feel or what the end result would be, including not waking up. Of this i am ashamed but i don't know how to help myself. I need help, i need something I'm not getting now, and I don't know what that is.
Today I go see my therapist, but i have a bag packed to go to the Behavioral health center. I'll likely be on suicide watch the first day or so. I hate having to do this but maybe it's what is best for me.