Happy Thanksgiving

I'll get to the typical what I am thankful for later

We went to my mom's house today for Thanksgiving lunch with the family, My mom and stepdad, My Sister and her husband and daughter, Me Angie and the Kids, and my Aunt Barbra was there too. It was a pretty good day but I spent the whole time in near panic mode for no reason at all. I walked up to the road and back like 3 time which is a pretty good bit of walking considering how long and winding their driveway is. I'd equate my trips to half a mile or so.
I had no REASON to be panicy and withdrawn, there wasn't a big crowd, no real stressors but I was very shaky inside and didn't feel comfortable till after nearly everyone was gone. I finally melded into the group and we watched some Stupid Crook show on tv. I DID manage to get their DVD player hooked up to their nice new flat-screen and showed them how to swap between it and the satellite reviver.
I realize that part of why I get uncomfortable is pure fear reaction even to a small crowd but I'd been doing pretty well at that of late, I guess the added stress of it being a holiday just did me in.
I am VERY thankful for my family and I do mean all of them. My wife is so very supportive and is the rock of my foundation. My two wonderful and amazing children are my hope and courage. I may not have had the most solid and traditional happy childhood, but I have come to understand that despite the fact I spent my first 20 some odd years trying my best to get away from them, I do love my family and need them in my life.
Thanks to all of you out there who mean something to me, you know who you are. My strength is only as good as my support and I have some great supports out there if I will just break down and lean on them.
Have a blessed/merry/happy Day to everyone