another bad day

I didnt want to, no ... actually Refused to get up this morning, mad my wife and kids angry at me, was an ass to them in return. I dont know why i'm getitng down like this, I dont know what my problem is, i just want to sleep my life away, I count the hours till i can sleep again, If i had something to make me sleep i would take it, but i dont and i'm not going to GET something. I dont know whats going on but when i get a few rare moments of clarity, I dont LIKE it, not one bit.